A couple of years ago I had something horrible happen to me that has totally crushed my confidence, my self esteem and left me with severe emotional damage and very depressed. I've been struggling with re-discovering myself and trying to regain ground on who I am, who God says I am, and what I am created to do. Due to disobeying my heavenly Father, the enemy really found a chance to attack me. In short, it has left me a completely different person. (I will not share details now) For now, I am well on my way to receiving my healing that Christ Jesus has for me.
In a mode of trying to find healing and regain my confidence I am beginning a new post series called "Blogging for Confidence". I'm following a blog "One Sheepish Girl". She has been doing this for a couple of years now and it seems as though from reading her blog, that this is working. I've been thinking of doing something like this for some time. I was thrilled to see her actually doing it and it working. I hope I get the results I'm looking for.
I'll have to say is, at first, I was scared to death. I mean really SCAAARED. The last thing I wanted to do was put myself out there for people to be mean, cruel and critical. Which is something that I didn't need as my emotions and well being have been in critical condition. As I've surrounded myself with those who truly love me and know my situation, they have been part of getting me to where I am now. Of course, with the help of the Holy Spirit and Jesus Christ, my healer.
In the past, I've wanted to be transparent and honest. A person with high moral integrity. Someone who could be used by God. Now, finding myself in a place where I would rather just shut the doors and windows on the whole world. I could choose to stay in a world of anger and hate. But that will not benefit me, my family, my health, marriage or friends. Plus, it will not glorify God, which is what we were created to do.
So this post series has many objectives. I'm seeking healing, self-confidence and reassurance that there are good and kind people out there. Please help me with my endeavor and take my hand and lead me forward and farther away from my past. Please show me that there are kind caring people who are thoughtful, considerate and treat others like they want to be treated.